Those were the days….

have you ever received a news that somehow will be the good and the bad as one shot?? guess what… this few days my life are full of this kind of news…weird huh… hard to explain but a news that might be bad to other ppl will be a good to you.. or maybe vice versa, so be prepared for it!!

this few days make me think so much about the life..about our life..how I want it to be for myself..and I was thinking maybe I do need to change myself.. yup!! Rehal @ Rie is changing gurl!!! she will change for the best of herself..there’s no words can pull her down or even make her reach to the sky.. being moderate is the most important things and must always appreciate every one out there …but the most important thing is to hear what yourself want in this world..for your life..for your own future…so I do need to think wisely..

but for me..what I really  want?? its just hapiness…the one that I been logging for so long.. who dunt want it right?? and Nicole has tell me once if you never have the pain you wont gain it..to understand the real meaning of hapiness is you need to feel the hurt as well..than you will appreciate it more once it come to you…  there’s no hatred if you dont have the love to someone at the first place right..so same goes to here…

whatever you do…please try to love yourself..your family..your bf/gf and also your friends… you might not knowing that one day the love will always come back to you unconditionally..

believe in yourself..trust your instinct!!

take care everybody!!!

someone ask me why in my blog I never share the happy moment that I had before..and he curious either my life is that bad?? but naaa compared to other ppl I think I’m still one of the lucky gurl in this world.. I have my family, my career, my friends around me.. so why need to feel sad right?

1st Sep 2007 is one of the best date that I will remember till the end of my life…the happy moment that I’ve been waiting for so long…I’m super dooper happy thinking of it…I do hope that I could hold the moment from passing by but I dont have that kind of power

there’s a reason also for not having any power cause GOD knows I’m sure will miss use it… hahaha…hiks.. but many thanks again who ever cheering up my life on that day! I’m thanking ALLAH for the blessed…now I really appreciate my life and ppl’s around me… even so many things happen to me but still there’s always a light at the end of that tunnel aiyte? so maybe this is just the right moment for me to enjoy and be happy about it…

I know there’s so much thing will happen in future but for the time being I love being me, myself, Rie and Rehal-Azrykien…and to ppl out there, thanks for your love, your concern, your advice and your guidance on me… I appreciate it so so much….

only ALLAH will repay your kindness to me…

hey today I think I’m back on my feet again..try so hard to  be happy with everything happens in my life…

even my heart still hurts from what had happen but life has to move on.. someone’s told me if none of the ppl out there care about you but you yourself should care bout’ it..love yourself more than loving other ppl.. cause if you appreciate yourself you will know that you are worth for hapiness…I know I’m worth it!!

it’s true maybe what I feel now is what his feels too..the pain..the sadness..the loneliness but maybe just MAYBE he’s also not feeling the way I feel now..maybe he is enjoying EVERY MOMENT of it.. so what for I feel sad for myself if he is happy with his life over there?? with all his friends..his TRUS friends..enjoying their moment together..what for I feel bad for this relationship if he’s not even thinking about improving it and make me as his priorities?? right??

I know I should be strong now..I know I’m not perfect..I know I’m stubborn and I know I’m sensitive too…but upon all the weakness I still have my own strentgh…this is just a small issue and I should know my life has been tested with so many issues before and I manage to handle it…thanks to ALLAH for making me so strong in facing all the issues..

so I do believe that this issue will be resolve one day but at the same time I should just believing in myself and keep praying for ALLAH’s guide to continue my journey..I think I’m strong to do it…

again thanks to all the friends who secure the time in giving me hope and advice..I could not treassure more with our friendship but only by thanking all of you again…THANKS SO MUCH!!

this is friends are for…

I’m starting my blog for today by giving my appreciation to my BESTFREIND ~ Ninie, and to one of my childhood friend ~ Waheeda and the last one is to my stupid idiotic charming friend ~ Jason!! thanks to all of you for ur concern towards me in facing my rough day in my life..appreciate it so much.. thanks for being a great friend of mine..

friends doesn’t meant to be presence at all time..even we have been far apart, their advice will always help me to be strong and also help me to believe that my life is not that sucks!! there’s others who facing much more worst than me..so I should be thankful instead of complaining about it huh??

I should have known that problems are always there and only me myself have a control over it..I should try to find a way to solve the issues and yet still having a HAPPY LIFE..hopefully I manage to do it..

I know I will survive and I am a survivor!!

thanks for believing in me friends…thanks for everything!!

I should put less expectation on ppl since at the end there’s no initiative to meet it.. and make me even feel super dooper sad is the stuff that I keep mumbling everyday is just meant nutting, simply nutting!! ppl just saying things that we wanna hear..but once I found out the truth its crash my heart deeply..and I feel so frustrated…can’t ppl just think that somehow, someday I will knew about all those craps that been sharing to me?? dun try to tell lies..at the end you will spoil everything!! :(

but the best way for me is to let it be.. cause if ppl dun care about what I’m saying and what I want, then fine for me!! dun expect me to listen or believing in whatever you are saying in future..for me it’s all stupid craps!!!!

I’m too frustrated with my life…with my work…with my team..with my family…with my………………………

it’s just life and I’m should know by now that I’m always the one who facing all this and I dun know by when ppl can start focus and listen to what I’m saying and what I want…

maybe that day will never come….. :((

keep on praying that one day ppl will know that the things I want is meant for the best… sighhhhhhhh

as I thought today should be a better day for me but looks like it’s becoming worst and worst…

:( :(

that’s life!! my life is sucks man……

the whole morning I was in Venture for meeting.. and the meeting end around 2.00pm and as usual I’m walking back to the office.. Venture and HP can be said as a "neighbour" cause the building is side by side.. but still if need to walk and it take at least 5-10 minutes of the journey..it’s a good way for exercise tho’!! hahaha..since this few days I’m so lazy wanna go for my aerobik class and do the exercise..lazy bump huh?? what to do…

well I was suprise when there’s some one following me back to office today.. sighh.. it’s scary but at first I guess they just wanna play around.. even it’s a bit too much but still I ignore and continue my journey back to the office..I think I do need to bring the "pepper spray" as my protections..at least if anything bad happens to me I got something to protect myself..preventions is better than cure!! it’s a great idea… but where on earth am I going to get the "pepper spray" huh?? now even its 5 minutes walking distance doesn’t assure you are safe and OK!! anything can happen within a second..so beware!!

so girls out there..do extra carefull ok…maybe my experience is not that much but do look around..who is ppl around you..from it maybe you can prevent something bad happening to yourself or even to someone else…

take care everyone…

by the way, today is May’s birthday and I wanna wish her a wonderful years ahead & happily ever in life.. not to forget for NANCY too ~~ which her bday was on 6th July.. Happy Birthday to both of you.. hope your dreams will come true..thanks for being a great friends to me!! love both of you…do invite me on your "BIG" day okey… heheheh… as mentioned by Nancy it’s either, 8.8.2008 or 9.9.2009 or 10.10.2010.. whaa..whatever the date is, I WILL try to attend it ( if you invite me lar ya!!) HEHEHE..

humpzz..today I feel happy about ma’self.. cause I can really focus on what I want in this life.. what I’m looking for…and I also knows some of the "true colours" on ppl which are close too me.. how in a sudden ppl really can change huh? well..I guess my analysis about ppl never change was wrong cause ppl can change within 24hrs..funny huh..but at least I learn sumthing new today..

well dun talk about sadness today cause I’m superb happy.. During lunch I came out with all of the gurls in the office to celebrate Nancy’s and May’s bday.. and afterwards we drop by to the boutique which is just next to our restaurant to look around..the price is not that expensive and I like the design so much.. the dress is NICE!! and some of the TOP also nice..guess I will be dropping by to that boutique soon!! wanna buy it…wanna buy it…hehehe.. or sum one wanna buy it for me? also can lah… hahahahahah…it’s my pleasure!!

today my colleague asking me to join them for Karaoke session in RED Box Tebrau City.. I can’t make it cause I need to settle some issues at home.. so all my friends out there.. enjoy tonight ok.. please sing my song.. WA MEN DE AIII & YUE DING (wa hai ji’ de’ wa men de yue ding..lalalala)..so long never sing a song lar!! kinda miss that moment!!

well dun be suprise of what you seeing today cause u will feel much more suprise of seeing the future…if you feel happy today, there’s a lot of hapiness in future…if you had a bad day today, you will have the worst in future…. so do prepare yourself!!

take care everyone.. hope we will meet again..

humpzz..

i dun feel so good today… maybe will take 1/2 day MC..durghh why this few days my antibody doesn’t work so well.. I’m going to SICK i guess… arghhh…my brain doesnt function so well, my body part are having disfunctional issues as well..dun talk about the inner part of the body, guess it become worst everyday!! grrr… what to do!!

Yesterday I couldnt sleep thinking about what ppl want in their life..and from the day I wan born till now, I always think about other ppl..and try to fit in their needs.. but how come I never think  bout’ what I want in this world.. and why ppl dun intend to fulfill my needs as I try to fulfill theirs? am I less important in their life compared as them in mine? hehehe.. maybe I’m NOT important at all to them..

sacrifice..sacrifice..sacrifice…yeah we always talk about it..but I really tired to talk on it..Can I just IGNORE what other ppl want? IGNORE what they think?? Can I just be as what I want?? and I know most of you will said, YES, OF COURSE YOU CAN REHAL!! it’s your life.. well it’s easier said than done huh… but truthfully I dun know why my mind can think all sort of issues but NOT even spend a minute to THINK bout ma’self..hahaha..funny huh…or maybe I’m too KEYPOH about other ppl life’s..

well, to be frank I dun want to hurt their feeling..but if I’m the one who is hurting than how?? I’m not PERFECT.. but I try so hard to be a PERFERT person to the one I love..Try to be a PERFECT daughter in the family.. A PERFECT sister to the brother.. A PERFECT friend or even a PERFECT lover.. but some how we reach to the limits that we can’t offer as much as we thought.. we can’t just fit in what they want.. without it, arguement will be start..and I’m tired of fighting..sighhh…

but I need to be strong.. there’s a quote that I remember till now.. "if you don’t know or start to think of what you want in your life, don’t expect other people to know or think about it for you !!"

so the most important thing I wanna know, am I important to anybody out there?  If I am, will you sacrifice yourself to make me happy?

hahahaha… and some how I hear another quote upon that question..

"YOU WAIT LONG LONG LAH REHAL!!!"

it’s a bad day and i’m sad

when ppl tend to promise me something but they never keep it..it’s hurts a lot..

and by giving a chance for ppl to change is one thing but do ppl really change?

one of my friend did say that ppl never change!! never ever!! and i guess maybe its true that ppl never change..

tired of telling ppl what I want & what I dun want..tired or explaining things for so many times…tired of discussing when ppl tend to less care about the issues..tired on a continuous fight..

relationship mostly about give and take, considerations, patience & respects..either the relationship as a friend, lover even with our own fmly, this is the basic guideline..

but if you had given all of that and the relationship still like a HELL, then step back and THINK..think about it over and over again..and i’m sure you will find the answer..dun pressure yourself but give urself a time..

we tend to compare ourself with other ppl.. why he/she can be like that, can have this and can have that..but we forget that might be they also lack of sumthing in their life..which we never think of that aiyte??

so appreciate your life..appreciate your family..appreciate your friends..because of them there’s a lot of colours in this world..

there’s a light at the end of that tunnel Rehal..just hold it on..

15th Mar’07 we had a gathering for Lawrence Birthday celebrations..actual fact his birthday is on 19th Mar.. but I guess most of us are BUSY with our stuff on that day thus Ziying had arranged a karaoke session in RED Box Tebrau City!! so we can celebrate Lawrence Birthday  in ADVANCE!!

not all of the HPMTech ppl are been invited to this occasions.. even me myself also not even in the loop, how could they never put me in the loop, sobs sobs sobs..?? <— Ziying can I understand why I’m not in the loop

hehehe.. but Rehal never care one!! even she never received a so called "FORMAL" invitations, yet she’s still joining them.. since Keng Siang, Nancy and my lovely MANGKUK - Lau, oledy  invite verbally, then only I agree to join in as well (must have some face right.if ppl never invite FORMALLY, then must wait for the verbal invitations, only can GO maa)..hehehe..

they book a room from 6pm till 11pm and I’m following Lawrence with his car together with Mandy and Sylvia..we had our dinner there (a buffet, but trust me the food serve in RED Box is NOT that nice!!)..we sing quite a number of songs and it’s proven only POH TEE got a potential in singing!! the rest including myself all are out of tune, out of pitch and some of it even dun know the MELODY itself… hahahahha…and I’m a bit confius why they still choose that song to sing??? at the end, I find it as a READING session rather that singing!! hahahahha…so funny…

I tried so hard to sing a song ~ Wa Men De Aii from FIR and Yue Ding from Guang Liang.. and I only knew the chorus part..so all of them can hear my voice very LOUD and CLEAR during the chorus and will be silent afterwards… shit!! I forgot to bring the lyrics that Kim prepared for me.. If NOT I’m preety sure I can sing Yue Ding PERFECTLY!! I should proposed to RED BOX and all of the KARAOKE company to provide the subtitle in ABC form since I can’t read chinese.. so how to sing? uwaaa….luckly all of them help me to sing along especially Poh Tee, Poo Guan, Yi Khing and Ziying…thanks ya!! it’s a lovely song….and singing with all of you make it even NICER!!

even it’s a short session but I guess we had our fun there.. I’m happy that my life has been blessed with all kind of friends which one way or another make me smile and laugh thinking of what they did!! It’s always help me to cheer up!! I guess life is NOT that bad huh.. there’s always pro’s and cont..

to Lawrence if you reading my blog, HAPPY 29th BIRTHDAY to you and I do hope your wish (that we wish together) will come true..

to the rest, whoever reading this… Thanks for being my friends and cheering up my life!! without all of you, my life won’t have any meaning at all…

p/s: I WISH if Nicole can join in as well.. We never spend our time together huh? promise me that you will spend some time on my birthday ok?